2016

I'm thankful for my family, my friends, my health and my happiness.

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- Cher

Bulk spices

Sprouts has a section and it's awesome!

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- Cher

Yelp picks

Great dinner with great friends at a successful yelp pick.

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- Cher

Good homilies

I teared up in church today bc the homily was so moving. The reason for the season. Jesus Christ is born.

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- Cher

The rain

The rain washed away most of the dust and dirt from my car last night! Now I can wait a few more months to wash it. Haha

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- Cher

12/13: Online recipes

Hopefully the ones I picked today turn out yummy!

Multiple pharmacists

We've been getting a lot of refill requests recently so it helps so much when there are other pharmacists who help me with them.

nutella hot chocolate

6 cups milk

1.5 cups heavy cream or milk (milk if you don't want it too thick)

1 can condensed milk

1.5 tsp vanilla extract

1.25 cup nutella

mix everything, crock pot on low for 2 hours, stir occasionally

Lounge access

Take a nap. Eat. Watch some tv. Pump. Relax. Makes waiting for a flight not so bad.

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- Cher

Good food & new friends

Great experience and good food

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- Cher

12/8: 4:30pm

I was notified that I have to attend the staff meeting today. I usually leave around 4:30, the staff meeting starts at 430! Thankfully Alex was able to leave on time and pick up Chloe from school.

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- Cher

12/9: Target

Danger danger! I've found a Target within 10 minutes of my work. I was able to do a quick Target run on my lunch today and finished up most of my Christmas shopping!

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- Cher

Todd's United Premier access

Flying to Chicago today!!! Without kids I'm part of the regular flying class so originally I was boarding group 5 but I was able to board with Todd since he has United Premier access. Hooray for early boarding!!

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- Cher

12/6: Grandparents

Alex's dad is watching Ryan and my mom is watching Chloe today. So thankful for grandparents!!!

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- Cher

12/5: teamwork

Teamwork makes the dreamwork

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- Cher

The Christmas spirit

Usually people are nicer and more understanding this time of year. I wish more people were like that all year long but I'll take what I can get.

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- Cher

2 parents

Ryan was a booger-y mess last night.  He was hungry but couldn't breathe, tired but didn't want to sleep. I am SO SO thankful that Alex was there to help me hold, soothe and take care of him.

IBU

I've been battling a sore throat ESP at night. I think it's mostly due to the heater drying me out but it's irritating nonetheless. This morning I took an Ibuprofen 600mg tab and it helped so much!! Only now am I feeling the sore throat again.

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- Cher

Leftovers

It's Leftovers day! Great not having to think about what I'm going to eat bc I know there's a ton of food in the fridge.

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- Cher

11/24: Alex

Today I'm thankful that Alex saved my turkey, gave me the Thanksgiving dinner that I wanted but most of all that he gave me Chloe & Ryan. I'm thankful for a loving family and great friends. My health and my career. My life and my faith. Thank you Lord for it all.

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- Cher

Nap time shifts

Chloe's napping but Ryan woke up. Alex said he'll watch Ryan while I take a nap too. Hooray! Tag you're it!

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- Cher

Norah Jones

Her songs always calm me down, so peaceful and at ease.

My mom

Thankful for this lady who gave me life and continues to give me unconditional love and support. She is currently pushing my 2 kids around while we wait for a table at CPK.

11/7: Movie time

I went to watch Doctor Strange tonight and it was a nice break from the normal weekday routine.

11/8: my right to vote

Regardless of the outcome I have to be thankful that I have the right to vote and make my voice heard.

Morning time with our son

Some days I feel like I don't get to spend quality time with Ryan and I know Alex gets even LESS time than I do.  I try to remind myself of that fact when he wakes up at 4am and wants to play. Today Alex also woke up so the three of us got to play for a little bit and we got to focus our attention all on him.  It was a nice change and made the 415 wake-up not as harsh.

My health

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- Cher

Apple Watch

It's been a long time.  I often think about things I'm so thankful for but for some reason I haven't forced myself to write it down.

Today I was in a rush to get Chloe to school early so I could get to work on time.  I knew if I put all my bags in the car first I was very likely to forget my phone at home.  

Fast forward to driving to work. No phone. I'm driving to work thinking, when I get there I need to call Alex and tell him I left my phone at home in case he tries to contact me.

Fast forward to getting to work. My patient is ready so I go see her right away. BUZZ, my watch goes off.  After the appointment I look and I got 3 iMessages!  Apparently since my phone is connected to the internet at home and my watch is connected to the internet at work, my imessages are being forwarded to my watch!  I was able to dictate and send a response back too!

A pleasant surprise for the day =)

2 weddings

I was lucky enough to wear my wedding dress twice! Once at our first official wedding and again the following year at our church wedding. I still think about it and how much I loved it. To each their own :)

Grandparents

Today Alex's parents watched Ryan and Lola watched Chloe since Alex went to work. I was able to go to Jeanne's baby shower solo! It was kinda nice :)

Bassinet sleeping!

Ryan has been sleeping between Alex & me for most of the night for the past 2-3 weeks. Last night I was able to feed him and put him back in his bassinet 5 times!!  I was very excited to post about it. 

Free hands!

Alex's parents are here again and it's like I got my hands back! Chloe is playing with them and letting them take her places. Ryan only breast feeds for a few minutes now and they love holding him (and he loves to be held) so it works out! 

Husband!

I'm sick :( my body feels broken and I can't breathe. I'm so so thankful Alex was here to take care of me. I was able to rest and recouperate. 

IKEA

Aka indoor Disneyland with AC

Early days

Alex had a work meeting today and I thought it was going to end at 5 but he came home at 2! Score!!!

Bottles

Ryan successfully drank milk from the bottle today! His first time and both him & Papá survived. Hooray!

Lola's house

I had a dentist appt today and we came to my mom's house afterwards. Ryan fell asleep in the Ergo so I sat down and took a nap also. He slept for 3 hours, woke up and then fell asleep on my shoulder. I put him on the couch and said to myself, I'll leave when he wakes up, since he usually wakes up 10 minutes after you put him down. I was wrong. He's still asleep so we're still in Cerritos at Lola's house!

Preschool

Chloe started preschool 3 days a week so that let's me relax a little and only have to care for Ryan on those three days. Today he took a 3 hour nap and so I was able to nap too!! It was awesome.

Cool breeze & AC

It was pretty hot today but there was a really good cool breeze going on at DCA so we had a great day despite the heat!

Swaddled sleep

So thankful that Ryan fell back asleep after I swaddled him and put him in the bassinet. 

6/1: Pacifiers

Those who fought and died for us

In honor of Memorial Day, I'm truly grateful for anyone who has fought for and died for us. I hope you are remembered for being the heroes you are.

And based on what I learned in church yesterday, thank you Jesus for fighting for our God and for dying for my sins. I hope I honor your memory every day. 

Lola

We went to Cerritos to help Mom fix some things around the house and Chloe didn't want to leave so we left her there! Mom was totally down to watch her overnight and Chloe was totally fine with it. Let's hope all goes well tonight and she doesn't throw a tantrum tomorrow morning! Thanks Lola!!

Ergo

Because Ryan likes being held so he can fall asleep and Chloe needs attention. The Ergo lets me hold Ryan and play with Chloe at the same time. 

1 month and 6 days

One month & 6 days of new life. It's been up and down and currently in a rough patch but I'm so thankful for our son and for our expanding family. 

Stylish cousins

My family has been great at lending us small baby/kid clothes so we don't have to spend a $$$ on clothes they'll only wear a few times. The best part is Chloe & Ryan have some stylish cousins so they end up with super cute hand me downs!

4/22: Extra hands

Ryan loves to be held so it's great that Alex's family is here to hold him! It frees me up to do regular things like eat and go to the bathroom. 

Epidural

It's time again!! The contractions weren't as crazy as the first time but I'm still extremely grateful for my epidural. Labor pain is rough stuff!!

4/19: Pampered day

My mom said she'd watch Chloe while I went to get my nails done today which was a nice way to spend the morning. 

Family outing

We were home early today so we went to a 'new' park in Cerritos & had dinner with Lola! It was a simple & fun family outing. 

Warm afternoons

Chloe spent a good 20 minutes playing with a bucket of water today after her afternoon nap. Yes she got the inside of her boots super wet but otherwise she had a blast!

4/16: Outside time

I was unusually tired today so I was very glad when Alex brought Chloe outside so I could take a nap. 

4/15: Being included

I was invited to the 'all providers' meeting today! That's pretty rare so I was happy to be included. 

Full term pregnancy

As of this past Monday our baby boy is 37 weeks! I am so thankful that regardless of when he comes he will be a full term baby. I'm scared of what the future brings but I'm very excited to meet him and hold him and for Chloe to meet him. 

Kobe

I grew up watching the Lakers. I debated between Kobe & Shaq with my family for many years (I choose Shaq!) But tonight after all his hard work and memories I am thankful for everything Kobe has brought to this city and to basketball. Thanks for entertaining me as a Laker fan. 

long walks

I forgot how calming a long leisurely walk can be.  Today I was able to walk longer than my normal 30 minutes so I felt very refreshed for the afternoon.

4/7: Chairs

Retail pharmacy plus pregnant belly = back pain so thankfully I had a chair to sit in most of the day while I helped out at the pharmacy. 

4/8: Target

It was drizzling so instead of the park we went to Target!

Pope Francis

This statement in love & marriage is simple yet powerful. I hope to follow these guidelines and I hope everyone else does too. 

http://www.npr.org/sections/thetwo-way/2016/04/08/473494133/some-relationship-advice-from-pope-francis?utm_source=facebook.com&utm_medium=social&utm_campaign=npr&utm_term=nprnews&utm_content=20160408

Reading books

Chloe has started to read books to herself and it's so adorable! I can hear her saying the words/pictures in the books, counting to herself and turning the pages. It makes me so happy to just sit and watch/listen to her. 

Delicious salad

Alex threw some lettuce seeds into his garden and 'accidentally' grew a whole bunch of butter-romaine lettuce. It's super awesome when I'd like a salad for dinner. Literally some of the freshest salads I'll ever eat in my life. And they're yummy too!!

FB articles

http://www.marcandangel.com/2015/08/02/12-laws-of-gratitude-that-will-change-your-life/

This article gives a lot of insight on gratitude. I hope that I can live by these suggestions and be truly grateful for what I have. 

Today I'm thankful for understanding that gratitude is an important part of our life and a way to happiness and joy. 

Cleaning day

Today we cleaned up the house and it felt pretty good! I'm very thankful that Alex was into it also and that he stopped to play with Chloe when she was getting antsy. 

Early morning workout

I've been waking up kind of early recently so the past 2 days I decided to work out since I feel the lightest right when I wake up. Now I don't have to force myself to go walking during my lunch break! Hooray!

3/31: Tag team line holders

I must've been crazy thinking I could wait in line for the Model 3 by myself with Chloe. Good thing my mom offered to wait with us so one of us was able to walk around the mall with her while the other waited in line. Now it's time to wait for the actual car!!

Lunch dates

Alex and I went to lunch today! We're on a roll for our dates. 

Last minute dates

Dinner & a movie? Sure! Thanks for letting us have a last minute date night Mom!

Timing

Great timing today. I put Chloe in bed right before my conference call started!

Routine

Thankfully Chloe likes to stick to her nighttime routine regardless of what time she wakes up from her nap. At least recently that is, let's hope I didn't just jinx us!

Easter chairs

Easter means church is super packed so I was grateful when I saw they had set up extra chairs in the back rows of the church. Good thinking! 

Happy Easter everyone!

3/26: light traffic

I was worried I'd hit a lot of traffic driving out to Torrance but luckily it only took me 45 minutes! 

Jesus

It's Good Friday! Officially the end of the Lenten season and the beginning of the Easter Tridiuum. Each year I'm reminded of the sacrifice Jesus & God made for us and our sins. I can't help but be thankful. 

TED

The TED website isn't blocked at work!  At least not yet.  Today I was able to listen to different TED talks and pass the time while dispensing.

Disinfectant spray

Potty training Day 1 and there were a lot of accidents and many times when I considered giving up. Thankfully there's disinfectant spray to help clean up the mess and midday naps to refresh the mind & body. 

Light traffic

I got to work in a decent amount of time today and since I left early I had 25 minutes before I had to start work! So I went walking instead of waiting to walk at lunchtime. I was able to exercise, didn't use Fastrak and got to work on time! 

A smooth labor

2 years and 3 hours ago I started feeling contractions. About this time they admitted me to the hospital and started everything to get Chloe here. My labor was super smooth with her and I know I am so incredibly lucky. I hope this next labor (in a few weeks) will be just as easy. 

Easy shopping

I love it when you go shopping for a particular outfit or event and you find something right away! Bonus when it's affordable!

Engaged fathers

As I walked around the East LA park/pond today I saw a cute father & son who were having so much fun together.  They were running around after the ducks and just up & down the hill.  The son was laughing so much and had the biggest smile and the dad was acting goofy and waving his arms regardless of who was watching.  It made my heart smile at the joy they were having together and makes me so thankful for ALL the dads out there who are play a big role in their child(ren)'s life.

Raising kids now is different from how we were raised and I'm so SO glad that one of those changes includes a more pro-active father.

Extra hands

Alex's family is visiting for Chloe's 2nd birthday and while the house feels crowded it's always so nice to have extra hands and the extra help. 

Semi prepped dinner

Dinner didn't take too long today since I had already made the pasta sauce and the sausage was pre cooked. 

TUMS

They really do help when you have heartburn!

Salad dinners

I'm so thankful when Alex makes a nice big salad for dinner. It's quite refreshing and a great change to the dinner lineup. 

Alex

If Chloe wakes up in the middle of the night Alex has been good at getting up and I'm so thankful because that means I don't have to roll over and fall out of bed. 

3/11: Disneyland magic

We went to Disneyland yesterday to celebrate Chloe's 2nd birthday! She had so much fun and even took a decent nap in the stroller! I was so happy she/we had a good day. 

3/11: Independent play

Chloe has gotten pretty good at playing on her own. Maybe it's a phase or maybe it's her but I'm so proud of her and so thankful that she doesn't constantly need our attention. 

Furiously Happy

I just started this book called Furiously Happy and it's SO AWESOME.  I've laughed out loud multiple times already and I've only read 10 pages.  Things are looking good for my reading future.

Finished projects

I love the satisfaction of finishing a project. Today I finished sewing 3 crib sheets and a mattress cover for the living room. I also almost finished 2 pillows for the new baby. I'm quite happy with how they turned out. 

Decent traffic

It was pouring rain this morning so I left for work early anticipating traffic. Luckily the traffic wasn't so bad and I got to work in a normal amount of time! Let's see how the drive home is...

3/6: 'New' toys

I brought Chloe to my sisters house today and she was very excited to play with all the toys. Everything is 'new' for her so she plays with them for a lot longer than any of the toys at our house!

3/5: Car naps and jungle gyms

Today we celebrated Asher's 1st birthday at a My Gym in North Hollywood. Originally I didn't know if Chloe would make it bc her nap is at the same time but she was a good girl and slept in the car on the way there. When we got there she played on everything and had lots of fun. 

East LA clinic

SOO much closer to me! I got to work in 30 minutes! I was very excited when I got to work. 

Easy pregnancy

Today was a super rough day in terms of pregnancy pain. While I was stretching all I could think about was how lucky and thankful I am that the rest of my pregnancy has been easy. I can't imagine having to deal with this type of pain earlier on. 

3/2: No dishes

We went out for dinner so there weren't any dishes to wash! Hooray!

Symposiums

Especially when they're relevant, have good information and free! Thanks Kaiser!

Proactive students & MA

It's very refreshing when you have a proactive student and a nice change when your MA is proactive also. 

Catholic community

At church today I was awestruck by the breadth of the Catholic community. Every once in a while I get this feeling of being such a small part of such a large organization but also feeling very proud of my religion. 

One of the best things about going to church is when you need a pick me up and you feel like the priest is directing his homily right at you. You feel like God was listening to your pains and is giving you a reminder that you have strength to get through it. 

2/27: Time to get together

Often times we're so busy with our own lives that we don't have enough time to get together with our friends. Today I was able to see a few friends and catch up with them. 

Simplicity

We hung out in the Grand Californian today and Chloe was quite content just wandering around aimlessly in the courtyard and in the lobby. At the heart of it I think she's a pretty simple child. I love her so much. 

Indoor kids gym

Chloe spent 2 hours there and still didn't want to leave. The best part is that I know she's safe on most of the equipment and I didn't need to follow her around the whole time. I was even able to sit down every now and then!

Quiet time

Chloe woke up and was in her bed but I was pretty tired so I decided to take a short nap before letting her loose. Alex waited a while and then went to get her and for about 40 minutes I heard them playing and talking. She loves it when he's home and will follow him everywhere. I stayed on the couch trying to rest and continue my nap and then I heard the garage door open, then close and now it's super quiet. I'm still on the couch, still resting and just enjoying my own quiet time. This is one of the best presents Alex could've given me!

Open table

Per my bratty request, we left the house at 4:50pm in hopes we'd be able to eat at Bestia. En route Alex was able to make reservations at Bestia for 5:30! We arrived at 5:15 and enjoyed a yummy dinner! Thanks Open table!

Papá

I had to go to work today so Alex took care of Chloe since he was off. He also had dinner in process when I got home!

Decaf coffee

I'm not a huge coffee drinker but Alex drinks coffee very very often and sometimes I want a cup of my own. I choose not to since I'm pregnant but yesterday we bough decaf coffee beans and this morning Alex made me a delicious decaf Spanish latte! It was exactly what I had been craving. Yum!

Nonstick pans

The scalloped shape of Madeleine's are very distinct but hard to achieve if you don't have a nonstick pan. So thankfully there's still the nonstick coating on our pans that allows me to achieve pretty Madeleine's! 

2/19: Palmer

Palmer is sick! I know he's getting old and I know eventually we'll have to say bye to him but I was so worried it would be sooner rather than later. Today I reflected on his unconditional love and his calm & caring demeanor while I prayed for him. I'm so thankful he's still in our lives. 

2/18: Family

When you can just go over to their house and hang out for a few hours like its no big deal. That's what I love about my family. 

2/17: Maternity support belt

Park

Chloe LOVES the park. She woke up earlier than normal today so we got to the park pretty early and had the whole place to ourselves for about 15-20 minutes. Even when other kids started coming there was a lot to do for everyone so she wasn't bored at all. 

2/15: Backup plan

Our morning plans got cancelled last minute and we were already in the car so we took a detour and went to Lola's house instead! I'm glad there's always a good backup plan in Cerritos. 

Early dinner

We got to Sam Woo at 6pm and it was pretty empty. By the time we left at 7 it was super packed with a lot of people waiting outside. Thank goodness for early dinners!

2/13: Options

I'm blessed to live a life where I have multiple options for many things.

Smooth clinic day

Today was a super smooth clinic day! I had a competent, dedicated MA, dedicated rooms, my own laptop and everyone was registered, vitalled and roomed in a timely manner. I couldn't have asked for a better Friday workday. 

2/10: Corny love notes

I made some all-nut granola bars per Alex's request and as I was mixing them I realized it was a perfect way to use a Valentine's Day pun! I took them out of the oven right when Alex came home and said 'This is our Valentine's Day gift to you. We're NUTS about you!' and proceeded to laugh at my own joke. Later in the evening I saw a commercial for Valentine's Day and had myself another laugh at my granola bar comment. Good thing Alex doesn't mind my cheesy jokes. 

Help at the school

Chloe wanted to walk to the school and play today which is usually fine. However, today as we got closer to the small gap in the gate that we use to sneak into the school I realized my belly probably isn't going to fit!! Thankfully Alex drove by on his way home and stopped to help me chase her down and run after her. Also very thankful the regular gate was unlocked and I didn't have to try to squeeze through the gap. 

Grocery shopping solo

I know Chloe loves going to the grocery store but sometimes it's hard to run after her and push the cart and actually grocery shop! Solo shopping is kinda rare but it's much appreciated. 

Safety

I was rear ended on my way to work today and luckily there was very minimal damage to both the cars and I feel ok so far. I have an appointment later to make sure baby boy is ok too. I'm so thankful there wasn't more damage and that everyone is safe. 

Straight car rides

We successfully drove to and from Calexico without having to stop either way! Chloe was a super trooper with Alex keeping her calm on the way down and luckily she slept for almost half the ride on the way back! 

Extended family

I watched Meet the Patels on Netflix just now and it's pretty hilarious. One thing that stuck out to me was when he said his extended family shows him what he always imagined he would have in his life:  family, kids, etc. Thinking back to when I was younger, that's how I feel with my extended family.

Windows

I love all the windows in our house. When the sun is shining and the blinds/curtains are open it's bright and airy in the house.

Alex

I had no idea what to do with the whole chicken I bought but Alex chopped it up and cooked it 2 ways plus veggies plus a sauce for dinner tonight. I'm so thankful for him and that he knows how to cook!

Food options

I didn't bring lunch today so it's nice that there are multiple food options close to work. 

Mashed potatoes

A dream food to cook with my little chef. She was so happy stirring, shaking the parsley, adding the salt and doing little taste tests! It was the perfect food for her to cook. 

Mornings with Papá

Alex had the late shift today which is SUPER rare and sometimes sucky because he's not home to help me put Chloe to bed. But he was home this morning to play with her and she was so happy to spend time with Papá. She wouldn't let him sit down or take a nap because she just wanted him to play with her. She helped him water the plants and they walked to the school and I could tell she was so excited to be doing things with him. 

Makeshift recipes

When you throw together a meal based on previous cooking experience. 

3D ultrasound

Yay!! We got to see our baby boy today! I was very excited to see his face and surprised but not surprised to see that he looks just like Chloe. 

Simple fixes

Mom's water dispenser in the fridge wasn't working so we went over to Cerritos to try to fix it. We figured out that part of the tube is probably frozen so hopefully that's it! It didn't take too long to figure out but we're still waiting to see if it'll work once it's defrosted. 

Soft beds

Chloe didn't want to take a nap but I put her on her bed and she was asleep within minutes! Definitely glad we got the mattress that we did. 

1/27: Responsible pharmacies

It's becoming more rare these days that the pharmacy will go out of the way to get the patient her medications or in this case glucometer. I was very impressed when the pharmacist told me she spent an hour on the phone with the insurance to figure out which meter was covered. I truly appreciate her effort and work. 

Quick defrost

The fish was still mostly frozen when I got home, oops! Good thing they were thinner filets and defrosted fairly quickly. 

Nap time

Maybe I was just tired today but Chloe was being slightly difficult this morning. So I was very relieved when she went down for her nap. Time for me to relax a little. 

1/25: Marinated meat

Got home, cooked rice, cooked the meat that had been marinating and played with Chloe while it cooked. Nothing too strenuous or time consuming.

Homecoming

Because the first hug after a few days of not seeing each other is just so nice

Pregnancy yoga

It helps to have guided stretching every once in a while. I feel like it opens my joints and relaxes the hard to reach muscles.

Vans

So you can go to IKEA and buy big items without wondering if it'll fit in your car. Thank goodness my parents have a van!

Chloe

Recently I've been so amazed at how much and how fast she's growing. The rate that she learns things, the things she says, the things she does, they all remind me of how much I love her. 

Beautiful sunsets

They remind me to appreciate natures beauty. 

Friends & Family

I hope that I can be a strong friend and sympathetic shoulder to cry on for my friends & family in these dire times.

TBT music mix

To accompany me on the drive to work

Good clinic days

To serve as a reminder of why I love and do my job. 

1/11: Sunshine

I know we're in a drought and we need water but I love it when the sun is shining. 

Shipping!

We finally got Chloe's mattress delivered! Now the next challenge will be keeping her in the bed when it's time for her to sleep. 

1/10: Family

Family is everything. Here we are celebrating my cousins bridal shower. 

Kid breakfast menu

Chloe's kids breakfast was too much food for her to finish but came with bacon and hashbrowns that Alex & I were more than happy to eat. It ended up costing less than if we had added those 2 items on as side orders. 

1/8: Quick appointments

Weight, BP, HR, any questions? No? Ok see you in a few weeks! 

That's how my OB appt went today, I was in and out super quick. Baby's doing great, growing, strong heartbeat and still kicking. 

1/5: Rain

Finally rain!! Let's make this drought go away!

1/6: Rain breaks

There was a break in the rain on the way to work and back! Luckily there wasn't too much traffic bc it wasn't pouring. 

New episodes

New episodes on TV!! 

Spanish speaking students

Especially important in my clinic when 85% of the patients are only Spanish speaking. 

Struggles and success

'Our struggles determine our successes.'

What am I willing to struggle for this year? Something to think about. 

Appetite

Chloe's appetite is back and now she has energy and is animated again. Thank the lord!

1/1: simultaneous naps

I was SO tired yesterday so by the time Chloe took her nap in the afternoon I also crashed. I was able to sleep for an hour I disturbed during our simultaneously nap. I woke up super refreshed.